Jerry has had a great day. We said goodbye to baby Charlie this morning, then the next crew came in this afternoon. Our other 3 grand boys have come to play for a few days. At first it was hard for Jerry, I could tell. But, he loves these little fellas and I think they have perked him up. They are so sweet to him. Besides, he is so handsome! I can't take my eyes off of him. Sometimes some of the saddest things are the comments that you guys make to me in my private email. I can feel your sadness and your broken hearts. That is even sadder than my own heart.
Please take comfort that you are not alone. I felt so alone for so long. It was a process and I'm sure I'm not through processing. While, at times, I write some pretty deep thoughts and sometimes I write flighty and funny things, I hope you can see that each day has to be taken with a grain of salt. It's so important to remember to sieze the good moments and let go of the bad ones. And while we all will grieve off and on for years, and at our own pace, our grieving is a way of healing day to day. We won't grieve today and the whole thing be over tomorrow. We'll pick up where we left off and continue the journey until we grieve again.
When the pain to too unbearable, which it was for me at the beginning, remember that it will subside. Give yourself a little while to grieve, but do not allow yourselves to stay there. We must take the next step and continue walking. Over time, hopefully you'll be able to skip a little.